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Name: brandon
Location: Virginia, United States
Gender: Male
Interests: star wars.. if you couldn't tell.. ERIN!! ddr.. friends, family, church, work!!
Expertise: ummmmm.. singing maybe... i love to sing.. i dont think i'm that good though.. but other people love to hear me sing.. hmmmm...
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  ddrjangofett
Member Since:
3/31/2006
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| well this was the funnest I've had in a long time at one of these things... they were always so boring.. bllleehhhhhh... but I went with erin, and it was the funnest i've had!!!! The only thing is we were sitting across from these two who made out the whole night, during dinner, and yes even on the dance floor, I wouldnt' be suprised if they were also on the way to the dance floor, you barely saw their faces apart from each other... it was so gross.. and they kept following me and Erin around like a sick puppy.. that was the only negative. Music was good lol.. lean with it rock wit it.. and me getting my lean on, cuz gangsta's dont' bounce.. they lean with it rock wit it... okkkkkkkk.. i'm done.. but yeah, I couldn't think of anyone more special to share this moment with than Erin, I'm so glad she decided to come, It just made my night, in fact, I havent' been as happy for a lonnnngggg time... I just wish she could see "HOW MUCH" i really love her... I know she knows I love her, but how much is just so incalculable...(if thats even a word) that I cant' even calculate it... okay that was just cheesy.. lol.. But I really do love her A LOTTTT.. But she's having some trouble right now... but I'ma always support her, and i'm always gonna be right behind her with whatever she does! I just want her to make the right choice!! but other than the military ball, nothing new! we went to laser quest with louis and it was pretty fun!! I got like 5th Erin got 11th and louis got 27th .. and it was all out of 30 people.. and the funny thing is louis got 27th but his laser stopped working like 5 minutes into the game, and he still beat some people.. now that is sad.. lol.. but, we're planning on going again saturday, and maybe seeing the omen too... hmmm... but we'll see.. I'm just trying to spend as much personal time with Erin, as I can, cuz who knows whats gonna happen while I'm gone, I hate to say it, but I might hafta come home, to find an Erin, who's in love, and is going with... another guy... but yeah.,, lets not dwell on this now, cuz I just want her to be happy.. but i'ma stick with the happy times now!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! no matter what x_x :D | | |
| well, here I am... I dont think its very fair, but I won't interfere with a girls heart, I dont know whats going through her mind or through her heart right now, I mean, this guy has only had one girlfriend, and he hasn't even had his share of heartbreak, I've been going through girls for a bit to find one that I even just felt like I could marry in the future, let me tell you, it doesn't get any easier, and its even harder knowing that, I love her sooooo much, and the fact, that i might not be the one she is going to be waking up to every morning.. Its a harsh reality, but one I need to realize. I can't just sit back, and let this play out, but I need to, I dont' wanna put too much pressure on her heart, I need to be careful, her heart is so precious to me, I wouldn't dream of hurting it... which is why I'm in such a predicament here. I wouldn't dream of hurting her, and it kills me to see her in this much pain. I know she is too.... I mean I know its not the same. but two girls that I am best friends with, I love, one is megan, I do love her, and she loves me, but we realized the fact that it isnt' gonna work out, after she used me, later on I got back together with her, but it just didnt' work out, it ended after like a week.. the second girl is sarah webb from school, I love her to death, and tried to get with her twice.. I was completely shot down both times, but I realized it wasn't gonna happen, and she and I became the closest friends i've ever been to a girl. the thing is sometimes I just had to realize it wasn't supposed to be. the hard thing here, is what is supposed to be, I pray, I cry, they say God understands your pain, then I dont' understand why everyone is going through this, but its training, or a test, or he's gonna be slowly weaning me off of Erin, so it wont' hurt so much later,. I dont wanna say it, but its a fact I have to face should that be the case. the fact of the matter is, I love this girl, so much, I love every little thing about her, I don't think she realizes, how I love her little half smile she gives me, the one she smiles just that tiny bit from the left side of her mouth, I love how she takes the time to get ready, and look super cute, and beautiful whenever we go out somewhere, I love how she takes care, and watches out for me. this is what I think the important stuff is, the little stuff. The physical aspect of the relationship isn't what is necessary, dont' get me wrong its nice, but thats all, just the fact that later on down the road, when your not gonna be able to do the physical stuff much, its gonna come down to the relationship, and oh boy, I love this girl to death, its a special kind of love, with a special kind of trust. I trust her.... i do.... I love doing the things I never liked before, just the simple act of painting, or going to the mall, I never realized how much fun it was to paint with your heart, and to see how it comes out a masterpiece in the end if you put your heart into it, I never realized how I could make a fool out of myself in public and not worry what she thought, and I can hang out with her and her little friends, like Rachel... I loved those times, she was so cute, we couldn't hold hands cuz Rachel would be embarrassed, but we both knew what we really wanted, just to be with each other. I mean its a long time i'm gonna be out, if I didn't have to I wouldn't go, but its God's plan, and I pray that shes gonna be the smiling face I see when I come back. but, right now its up to her. Its so hard, she's in so much pain, I want to just let her go, just so she wouldn't be in this much pain, it hurts me just seeing her like this, she thinks she's mainly hurting me because of this choosing thing, I mean it does.. but what really kills me is how she is so torn, that it is killing her, and just seeing her like that, is what really just gets to me... She's so strong yet, love.... is such a wierd, and strong, emotion, and its confusing at times, but what does it want... what does it want.... I want to be what it wants, This isnt just a fantasy, why I want to marry her, she is exactly the kind of girl I was looking for, my walk with the Lord has been closer because of her, I dont fight with my family as often as I used too.. even though its still a lot, I enjoy the simpler things in life, just waking up, my thoughts are filled with love and her... I'm so overjoyous in the mornings, now its filled with fear, what do I do... do I just sit and let her choose, I want to fight, I want her period... I would do anything, but alas its not my choice, I can' t make her do anything, I just pray to God that our paths wont have to seperate in the end. but, God is right behind me through it all. Its amazing how one can be filled with so much fear, no longer do I fear being awoken in the middle of the night from people bursting into my room, now my greatest fear, is waking up without that loving feeling in my heart, knowing that I'm loved... but there is another... what do I do? .... what do I do?? | | |
| ughhh... another ticket... this time its not my fault though.. I was going down route 1.. and I missed the sign where route 1 changed to 45 miles per hour.. and the next speed limit sign was the one for 40 miles per hour.. so then at this point I was going 50, but then the cop was already right on my bumper.. so if i started to slow down I thought he might hit me.. so I pulled over in front of two other cars so I can start slowing down,, but he came over with me. and there was a omni link or some bus in front, so I changed lanes again, but this is where he flashed me.. so yeah.. blehhh.. He didn't even give me a chance to explain, but whatever, i'm sure I can win this in court... its just aggravating, cuz its another hassle I have to deal with b4 I leave on the 22nd | | |
| this is for everyone who reads this entry of mine.. which actually consists of me... and uhh.. Erin... but yeah!! I had dinner with my baby last night at Red robin.. and I know what ur thinking... a romantic dinner at a family restaurant.. it aint' gonna happen.. But I think it turned out just wonderful! I had a wonderful night, with the most wonderful girl, and even the imposter french waiter helped.. lol... but yeah! we talked a little more about living proof.. and I know its gonna be hard.. but I geve her part of my heart, that she wears around her neck.. and I wear the other half around mine! so whenever I have troubles, ,I know I can look down, and know that there is someone I will be coming home to one day!! I know this is just a promise of words.. but theres no other way I can reassure this.. just for me to actually come back, and change the way things have been going for you baby!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! MWAH!!! | | |
| well, life is going great right now. I'm daily growing closer and closer to Erin everyday. Erin also brought up a good point.. Me taking this year for living proof would actually strengthen our relationship.. that time would give us the time to talk with each other, without all those temptations that satan would be throwing us.. the only thing is that this would be hard.. but I know our relationship is a blessing from God, so I know we will make it through this! She is definently worth the hard times that will be coming up!! I LOVE HER!! well, since your the only one reading this!! I love you!!!!!
MWAH!!!!! | | |
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